Headcovering and extra attention

Have you ever worn a red shirt to Target and had random people coming up to you, asking you questions? Often, wearing a headcovering feels a bit like that. It’s as if I’m wearing some church “uniform” and wearing a big sign that says, “Talk to me about liturgy!”

This is actually the most difficult part of headcovering to me. Just as putting on a uniform, or wearing your sorority letters, immediately turns you and your actions into a representative into that organization, putting on that headcovering turns you into an ambassador for Christ. You always were an ambassador for the Kingdom of God, but now you’re in uniform and everyone sees it.

This is excellent in the fact that it proclaims the coming of the Kingdom. But let’s not cover up the fact that this can be really draining for an introvert — an introvert like me.

Yup, I love headcovering but it often feels like work. I never feel like I get negative attention for it, but I do get attention and a lot of it. When I’d rather be in the shadows, people are asking me my testimony. When I’d rather sit quiet as a mouse, people are asking me why I wear it. When I’d rather have my nose in the Bible and the world shut out, people are wanting to tell me how beautiful I am.

I know it sounds awful. But part of being an introvert is that social interactions drain me, instead of revitalize me. I enjoy them, but they are draining none the less. A bit like how I love water parks, but they wear me out. I love these questions and things people bring to me, but I’ll be honest and admit that they wear me out.

But I think that’s part of the purpose of headcovering, at least for me. It stretches my comfort zone to push me to evangelize within the church (the “New Evangelization”). Merely me sitting there with this thing on my head is evangelizing. And every action and word I take with it on my head becomes a statement of “This is how a Christian acts.” To me, the challenge is draining, but I feel it’s worthwhile and when I get through each interaction gracefully, I am grateful that God carried me through.

Headcoverings and beauty

I’ve been using headcoverings in church and in prayer for a while now. People often ask me why I do it, and I have no special reason except that I feel called to. There was a lot of worry in the beginning as to what would happen when I started doing this. What sort of reaction would I get from other parishioners? The things I worried about never really seemed to happen, but a lot happened that I didn’t expect. The biggest of which is I did not expect people to find me beautiful when I was covering up my hair.

First and foremost are that I get comments that I am beautiful. I could do my hair for hours and perfect my makeup and get no acknowledgement, but if I throw a scarf over puffy hair and make no attempts to look beautiful — that’s when I get called beautiful.

Okay, maybe making funny faces ruins the effect of the headcovering!
Okay, maybe making funny faces ruins the effect of the headcovering!

Being called beautiful in this way is actually very humbling. Because it only happens when I’m wearing a headcovering, I know it’s not me that is beautiful. People may not be able to articulate it, but the beauty they see is not from me but, rather, from seeing the outward expression of devotion to God and obedience. Please note I said “outward expression” because I’m far from true obedience and devotion. But even just that outward expression — that glimmer and appearance — is something that people find beautiful.

 

No one would say, “I find obedience to God beautiful.” And, honestly, if I heard someone say that aloud in casual conversation, I might immediately judge that person to be in a less-than-canonical and probably-a-cult group, rather than mainstream Christianity. The words “obedience to God” rarely means what it says it means and, instead, means “obedience to what I say God says.”

But, lo and behold, actual obedience to the actual God based on scripture is something that we naturally find beautiful. Puffy eyes, no makeup, and pasty as a vampire — the beauty in obedience still shines.

Here’s a beautiful resource about headcovering: headcoveringmovement.com and I hope to post more here, too. If you’re interested in getting started, I like using light weight infinity scarves. Not only are they probably already in your wardrobe, but they can be used for other things, too. Here’s some examples:  

Volunteering when Poor

It’s easy to feel like you’re poor. So much around us is urging us to want more and more. But, if you’re sitting here writing (me) or reading (you) this post, it’s likely you’re not as poor as it feels sometimes. It can feel oppressive and trapped.

With so much telling us that we are poor, is there anything we can do to fight back? To make our mark in the sand and say — no, I am richly blessed by got.

The blessing of the Lord makes rich, and he adds no sorrow with it. Proverbs 10:22

At least for me, it’s volunteering and giving. I’m not in a financial position to tithe now (but when I did, it was such a blessing, and that will be a post for later), but I volunteer. Taking time which could be used to make money and, instead, offering it to others reminds us that we actually have so much in our lives. We have so much to give.

Do not neglect to do good and to share what you have, for such sacrifices are pleasing to God. Hebrews 13:16

I am a professional in the web hosting business. I have years of expertise that it more than good enough to deserve payment. But I’m giving that to the church. For me, these actions are easy and repetitious, but for my local parish, they’re difficult and expensive. I might not have money to give, but I have time (which is worth a value on the market) and I’m giving that.

And it sounds so altruistic but it feels good. It feels good because this is the kind of thing that God asks us to do, and doing God’s will feels good inwardly. So please don’t be taken over my despair when financial pressures are squeezing you in so tight. Instead, take an inventory of everything you have, including money but not overlooking skills and items. I feel that when you take full stock, you’ll find that God has given you so much and has done so for you to then give so much as well.